10:15 PM

Elliott Yamin-Wait For You

This cd is probably my guiltiest pleasure right now.. Chris bought it for me and it's been in my car's cd changer ever since.

5:53 PM

Whew. Only one more work day to go this week. It has definitely been a week of Mondays, Kris. Month end has been brutal and I know the data analysis and reports that I have to do over the next week aren't going to be much better. But at least the month is over with.

Chris has been brutally sick with a delightful mixture of really bad allergies and a cold, so I have been avoiding him over the last couple days as I really don't want to get sick. When I was there on Tuesday for his belated birthday dinner he could barely function as he was sneezing and his nose was running so bad. Poor baby.

(As an aside, it is really hard to concentrate on writing your blog when you have a cockatiel chewing on your ear. Very distracting...)

I am off to mom's this weekend for a visit. We will roll Mother's day and her birthday (May 29th) into one. I can't afford it but I will probably take her out for dinner. I am really dreading the drive, but it has been over a month since I have seen her and she's getting antsy for a visit.

(Now try writing with another cockatiel attacking your neck and a budgie crawling all over your chest. Bloody hell)

I haven't been posting much lately and I apologize. It's just been a really hard time right now. And I feel like all I do is whine when I come on here...but I literally have no where else to vent my frustrations. And right now I feel frustrated as hell.

I have no idea how the heck we are going to pay for this wedding. It's 11 months away so my father is taking his sweet fricking time talking to me about it. I just want to know a) how many people is he going to make me have at this thing and b) is he forking over any money to help. I swear, I would sleep so much better at night if this one little thing could be cleared up.

Chris is not getting any better. His psychiatrist is a bloody moron who is nothing better than an overpaid drug dealer. No talking, no cognitive behaviour therapy, no nothing. Chris has been seeing this guy for two years and has just gotten worse. SSRI's don't seem to do a damn thing for him and this doctor just has no exercises or suggestions. And getting a new shrink is really hard due to the 4-6 month waiting period. The whole plan for the next year was based on Chris at least being able to go to school in the fall and I'm not sure if that is even going to happen if his condition doesn't improve. And then I really don't know what we will do.

And then I have been feeling really bad about myself. I have tried to reconnect with 4 friends that I had fallen out of touch with over the past few years. I have pursued it, made lots of contact but after an initial response from them-NOTHING. Am I really not worth the effort for someone to reconnect with? Am I that big of a loser? It certainly makes you wonder.

Sorry, I have rambled and complained enough for one post. I hope you all are doing well and enjoying this hot weather.

Holli, your attitude in the midst of what is going on in your life is amazing. You keep your faith no matter what and that is so admirable. Keep strong and take care of yourself.

And now I am off to wash the freaking bird poop off my shoulder. How delightful.

11:38 AM


10:25 PM

Royal Botanical Gardens


More chipmunks!! There tons of them running about, eating out of the bird feeders and people's hands.

Tadpoles...well on their way to becoming frogs!

A mini Stonehenge...



An amazing looking tree..being the dumbass I am, I forgot to look and see what type of tree it was-duh!




The Lilac Exhibit was on...I just love the smell of lilacs!




There were hundreds of lilac bushes.





So pretty!



Ugh...Chris insisted on taking my damn picture...don't I look thrilled?











Chris at the entrance to this section of the RBG.

10:10 PM

FWR Dixon Wilderness Area







The scenery here was really pretty...













There was a huge swampy lake, full of fish and turtles...












This chickadee was very tame and just sat inches from us...













Chipmunks...my favourite!













The official flower of Ontario-the trillium...













My own personal Gil Grissom...








10:24 AM

Stop human trafficking


At the bottom of my blog page, I have put a link to a website that is trying to do some good. Take a look if you have a chance.

1:03 PM

Okay, this made me laugh...

1:36 PM

You Know You Grew Up In The 80's If...

1. You've ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCHE".

2. You watched the Pound Puppies.

3. You can sing the rap to the "Fresh Prince of Belair " ...and can do the "Carlton".

4. Girls wore biker shorts under their skirts and felt stylishly sexy.

5. You yearned to be a member of the Baby-sitters club and tried to start a club of your own.

6. You owned those lil' Strawberry Shortcake pals scented dolls.

7. "WOAH " comes from Joey on Blossom.

8. Two words: Hammer Pants.

9. If you ever watched "Fraggle Rock ".

10. You had plastic streamers on your handle bars... and "spokey-dokes" or playing cards on your spokes for that incredible sound effect.

11. You can sing the entire theme song to "Duck Tales ". (Woo ooh!)


12. You wore a ponytail on the side of your head.

13. When it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons.

14. You saw the original "Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles " on the big screen... and still know the turtles names.

15. You got super-excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school.

16. You made your mom buy one of those clips that would hold your shirt in a knot on the side.

17. You played the game "MASH ". (Mansion, Apartment, Shelter, House)

18. You wore stonewashed Jordache jean jackets and were proud of it.

19. L.A. Gear... need I say more.

20. You wanted to change your name to "JEM " in Kindergarten. (She's truly outrageous)

21. You remember reading "Tales of a fourth grade nothing " and all the Ramona books.

22. You know the profound meaning of "WAX ON, WAX OFF".

23. You wanted to be a Goonie.

24. You ever wore fluorescent clothing. (some of us... head-to-toe)

25. You can remember what Michael Jackson looked like before his nose fell off and his cheeks shifted.

26. You have ever pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf.

27. You took lunch boxes to school... and traded Garbage Pail Kids in the schoolyard.

28. You remember the CRAZE, then the BANNING of slap bracelets.

29. You still get the urge to say "NOT " after every sentence.

30. You remember Hypercolor t-shirts.

31. Barbie and the Rockers was your favorite band.

32. You thought She-ra (Princess of Power!) and He-Man should hookup.

33. You thought your childhood friends would never leave because you exchanged handmade friendship bracelets.

34. You ever owned a pair of Jelly-Shoes. (and like #24, probably in neon colors, too)

35. After you saw Pee-Wee's Big Adventure you kept saying "I know you are, but what am I?"

36. You remember "I've fallen and I can't get up"

37. You remember going to the skating rink before there were inline skates.

38. You ever got seriously injured on a Slip and Slide.

39. You have ever played with a Skip-It.

40. You had or attended a birthday party at McDonalds.

41. You've gone through this nodding your head in agreement.

42. You remember Popples.

43. "Don't worry, be happy"

44. You wore like, EIGHT pairs of socks over tights with high top Reeboks.

45. You wore socks scrunched down (and sometimes still do...getting yelled at by "younger hip" members of the family)

46. "Miss MARY MACK MACK MACK, all dressed in BLACK BLACK BLACK "

47. You remember boom boxes. and walking around with one on your shoulder like you were all that.

48. You remember watching both "Gremlins" movies.

49. You know what it meant to say "Care Bear Stare!"

50. You remember watching "Rainbow Bright" and "My Little Pony Tales "

51. You thought Doogie Howser/Samantha Micelli was hot.

52. You remember Alf, the lil furry brown alien from Melmac.

53. You remember New Kids on the Block when they were cool... and don't even flinch when people refer to them as "NKOTB".

54. You knew all the characters names and their life stories on "Saved By the Bell ", the ORIGINAL class.

55. You know all the words to Bon Jovi - SHOT THROUGH THE HEART.

56. You just sang those words to yourself.

57.You remember watching Magic vs. Bird.

58. Homemade Levi shorts. (the shorter the better)

59. You remember when mullets were cool!

60. You had a mullet!

61. You still sing "We are the World"

62. You tight rolled your jeans.

63. You owned a banana clip.

64. You remember "Where's the Beef?"

65. You used to (and probably still do) say "What you talkin' about Willis?"

66. You had big hair and you knew how to use it.

67. You're still singing shot through the heart in your head,aren't you!

12:30 PM

Monday, Monday (ba da ba da da da), can't trust that day...(be lucky you can't actually hear me singing that, lol)

4 more days til 5 days off...YAY!!! I don't care if I sleep the whole freaking weekend-it's better than being here in the pit of hell where I work. So far the weather forecast looks fab, so I can't wait. I think we are going to try and see Spiderman 3 on Friday after my massage therapy, so I am looking forward to that. Other than that the weekend is wide open...

This weekend was pretty good, although I am having major lower back and shoulder pain so that put a damper on things. We went for a nice long walk on the waterfront in Oakville yesterday... the weather was perfect for me, cool but sunny. I made Chris and his sister dinner last night-fagottini pasta with zucchini, peppers and mushrooms with garlic bread. We were all so stuffed we could hardly move!

So, everyone at work is on this Facebook website. After much harrassing, I joined up to see what all the hubbub was about. Interesting site. I tracked down a friend that I had been very close with up until about 4 years ago, so that was cool. And a ton of people from school as well as some family members. So it's pretty fun...

Well, I hope it's a good Monday for you! And Holli-major congratualtions on your good news!!

4:49 PM

3:58 AM

Telus

Who doesn't love bunnies????

3:58 AM

Telus Love Commercial

I am such a sucker for animals and I love all the Telus commercials. This is the most recent one and I think it is so cute!

3:58 PM

Hunh. I sit here staring at the computer screen, with my mind completely blank. And then I realize my life has been so incredibly boring as of late, I have just about nothing to blog about.

Work has been so brutal that when I get home all I want to do is curl up and sleep. Last week was just wicked with the crazy invitational sale and my boss now owes me some serious time-off for the overtime I worked. Thank heavens there is not another one of these stupid sales until October.

The weekend flew by really fast. On Saturday we went to the mall to look at some new clothes for me, but I had no luck finding anything I liked. I had wanted to go out for dinner, but Chris' sister made a stew in the crockpot for us before she went to work so we had to have that. It was a funky Jamaican stew, with yams, green and black beans, onions and very spicy jerk seasoning. I hate yams. I strongly dislike onions. Not a good dinner for me, but the thought was nice.

On Sunday we went mini-golfing again. And once again I realized that I have not inherited my dad's golfing skills. Chris kicked my butt again, but at least only by a few strokes this time. We went to Carmel, one of our favourite restaurants, for dinner. I swear you could have rolled me out of there afterwards, I ate so flipping much. Awesome food though.

And now it's Monday again. Exciting life, eh? Hope your weekend was more exciting!

And Holli, stay off the carck!

10:27 PM

A year from today...


11:24 AM

Hakuna Matata

No worries would be so good, wouldn't it? I was grumpy today and this song always make me smile...