Dreams lost...

Sadness reigns in my world right now. The hope is that the sun will shine in the days ahead. The fear is that the darkness has only just begun...

I love myself today
Not like yesterday
I'm cool, I'm calm
I'm gonna be okay!
Uh huh

Bif Naked, "I Love Myself Today"

I wish I could feel that way. I despise myself with such a burning hatred right now that it threatens to consume me completely.

I'm disrespectful.
I'm selfish.
I'm insensitive.
I'm uncommunicative.
I'm thoughtless.
I'm self-centred.
I'm unloving.
I'm abnormal.

I feel like some kind of a monster...

Can I be fixed? Who knows...