I am feeling VERY overwhelmed right now. I'm not sure if things are really that bad, or if I just can't handle things very well right now. Chris's mental state is really poor right now, and I just can't figure out anything I can do to help. He is taking medication (which is only making him more depressed) and seeing a psychiatrist, but I am really worried about the downward turn his moods have taken and the worsening of his apathy. Not helping matters is the constant presence of my mom, so we rarely get any time alone together anymore. I no longer feel the urge to throttle my mother on a daily basis, but the situation is still stressful. The birds are in nasty moods, with Gypsy laying eggs continually. Work blows, per usual, but at times I would almost feel better staying here than going home. I am flat broke after blowing hundreds of dollars on Christmas gifts ( I don't even have enough money for any lunch today!). I keep telling myself things have got to brighten up, but boy it is taking forever in coming. One happy note is Chris and I are celebrating our 7th anniversary on Saturday...please let that night go off without a hitch...that's all I ask.