Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
And I say it's all right
Little darling, it's been a long cold lonely winter
Little darling, it feels like years since it's been here
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
And I say it's all right
Little darling, the smiles returning to the faces
Little darling, it seems like years since it's been here
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
And I say it's all right
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes
Little darling, I feel that ice is slowly melting
Little darling, it seems like years since it's been clear
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
And I say it's all right
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
It's all right, it's all right
I love Jeff Dunham! The "Spark of Insanity" DVD is a riot, but Achemd is my favourite...
I so remember doing this in front of the TV when I was a kid...
Hide in a hole and hibernate. But I guess that's not a realistic solution, is it?
This past month and a half have just been horrible. The cancellation of the wedding has hit me really hard, a lot harder than I am letting on to anyone around me. I shipped off my wedding dress and jewellery today that I managed to sell on Ebay..that was heartbreaking, I adored that dress. I remember posting the pictures of it on here and being so excited...I feel like all my enthusiasm and excitement has been sucked out of me like a deflated balloon.
I should have known...I really should have known. This was the first happy, exciting thing to happen in our lives for years...I'm talking years overshadowed by sadness and disappointment and heartbreak...so I should have known it was too good to be true. I kept trusting that things would get better, that my positivity could push us forward, that working together towards having a happy life would make it easier. I feel so foolish, so incredibly foolish. I am a pessimist at heart, but I was so optimistic about this one thing. I always say expect the worst so you won't be disappointed...I failed to heed my own advice on this one.
But we learn from our mistakes. We build walls, we become more guarded, less trusting. It's such a shame, but necessary to emotionally keep ourselves together...
Sadness reigns in my world right now. The hope is that the sun will shine in the days ahead. The fear is that the darkness has only just begun...
I love myself today
Not like yesterday
I'm cool, I'm calm
I'm gonna be okay!
Uh huh
Bif Naked, "I Love Myself Today"
I wish I could feel that way. I despise myself with such a burning hatred right now that it threatens to consume me completely.
I'm disrespectful.
I'm selfish.
I'm insensitive.
I'm uncommunicative.
I'm thoughtless.
I'm self-centred.
I'm unloving.
I'm abnormal.
I feel like some kind of a monster...
Can I be fixed? Who knows...
Chris and I are going to an exhibit tomorrow at the McMichael Gallery in Kleinburg. The exhibit is the artwork of Robert Bateman, who is my favourite artist. Above are some of his paintings, which of course, are the sole property of Robert Bateman and are just shown for example only.
From Denise and Kris' blogs...(I copied and pasted, so it is going to take me forever to put all the u's in favourite, lol)
favourite colors: any shade of purple
favourite color to wear: black, followed by green and blue
favourite dead singer in the last 30 years: John Lennon or Freddie Mercury
favourite male singer: Jason Mraz or Elton John
favourite singer that turns me on: I cannot think of a single singer that I find attractive...
other favourite male singer: Meatloaf
favourite Canadian band: Barenaked Ladies
favourite political Canadian band: Our Lady Peace
favourite Broadway song: "Memories" from Cats
favourite female singer: Natalie Maines
favourite female singer who is most controversial: Alanis Morrisette, if you can really call her that...
My second favourite female singer: Chantal Kreviazuk
favourite dead female singer: Cass Elliott
favourite folk female singer: Don't have one
favourite female rocker: Joan Jett
favourite folk group: The Mamas and the Papas
favourite rock group: Def Leppard
favourite album: "Home" by the Dixie Chicks
favourite song to make fun of: "My Humps" by Black Eyed Peas....ugh!!!
favourite vehicle: A new Camry or Accord
favourite instrumental song: "Music Box Dancer" by Frank Mills
favourite classical composer: Can't say I have a favourite
favourite new age artist: Enya, since she's the only one I know ;P
favourite day of the week: Saturday
favourite holiday: Christmas
favourite outdoor activity: Hiking
favourite toy: Digital camera
favourite food: shrimp, followed by steak
favourite fruit: cherries
favourite veggie: Mushrooms...wait, that's a fungus...snow peas
favourite author: Hard to pin down one...Raymond Feist, George RR Martin, Diana Gabaldon, Melanie Rawn, Peter David
favourite book: "Imzadi" by Peter David
favourite genre of book: sci-fi and fantasy
favourite poem: Not a fan of poetry
favourite female poet: see above
favourite horror book: "It" by Stephen King
favourite horror animal: Don't have one
favourite movie of all time: "Star Wars" original trilogy
favourite sci-fi movies: All the Star Trek movies, Serenity
other favourite movies: "Little Miss Sunshine", "V for Vendetta", "Batman Begins", "X-Men" trilogy, "Grease", "GI Jane"
favourite form of exercise: walking, using my gazelle
favourite tv shows: Smallville, Buffy: TVS, Angel, Roswell, CSI: Las Vegas, Firefly, American Idol
favourite sense: Smell, then touch
favourite way to pass the time: Read
favourite comedian: Robin Williams
favourite vacation place so far: Going to the cottage
favourite time of year: Autumn
second favourite time of year: Spring
favourite shoe: Sandals
favourite material to wrap myself in: Polar fleece
favourite phrase: "Argh." or "What the (insert expletive) ?!?"
I apologize...it's been forever since I've posted. I just have not had it in me...to say that I have been blue would be an understatement, but perhaps it's the best way to decribe how I feel.. Very blue.
My mom is in town visiting me for a while, as she is going to watch the birds when Chris and I go away for Thanksgiving this weekend. We are supposed to go up to his family's cottage for Saturday, Sunday, Monday and Tuesday, but so far the weather looks kinda crappy, so Chris may decide not to go. Then I don't know what the heck I will do with my 5 days off. Maybe sleep....
It's nice having Mom visit, though. With her being a couple of hours away now, I don't see her nearly as much as I used to. And now that her meds are working so well, she's totally back to being herself, so it's great to spend time with her (such a difference from when she was living with me and so unbalanced). We are going out for dinner with Elizabeth tonight-they haven't seen each other in a couple of years, so that will be nice.
I hope everything is good in your world!
It's hard to believe it has been 10 years since the tragic death of Diana, Princess of Wales.
I have to agree with Denise...it's only Tuesday, but already it's been a crappy week.
I woke up Monday morning and could barely move with the horrible lower back pain. I am shuffling around like a 90 year old woman. Sleep was elusive last night and at one point I had dozed off after taking a few Advil. I woke up choking on stomach acid that had worked it's way up and it burnt the hell out of the back of my throat. No more sleep for Leah.
I am sitting here waiting for the Tylenol 3's that a kind co-worker gave to me to kick in so I can hopefully get some shut-eye tonight. They have given me heartburn, so I chomped on some disgusting Gaviscon to get rid of that. Ugh...I just want sleep!
My weekend was kind of sucky. I was supposed to have coffee with an old friend from grade school that I met up with on Facebook. Unfortunately, she didn't show up and I was left drinking my strawberry lemonade smoothie alone. Turns out she had reversed the last two numbers of my cell phone #, so she was unable to let me know she couldn't make it. It's too bad, because I really could have stood to see a friendly face, as I have been unable to shake these blues that I have right now.
One fun thing (at least for a geek like me) is that my five seasons of Smallville have arrived on DVD, so I have been watching them in all this alone time I seem to have right now. Really fun show to watch (and Tom Welling is certainly easy on the eyes...). I'm just into Season 2 now.
I have a super long weekend coming up. It's Labour Day, so I'm off Saturday, Sunday and Monday plus I took off Tuesday and Wednesday as well. I have no plans as of yet, other than trying to get some R&R. It will just be so nice to be away from work...I'm about ready to run wild with my machete again ;)
Hope all is well in your world!
